It Has Been A Long Week

I haven't posted because it has been a rough week. I have had people ask me, Are You Ever In A Bad mood, you are always smiling, I'm glad at times that they can't see behind the smile. Most of the time, I'm in a good mood. I have always felt, why should I bring others down just because I'm having a rough day. When I'm having a bad time I always look through a tunnel, even if there is a speck of light, I have hope. That tunnel has closed. I have spent the week writing out where I want things to go. That was a sad reality of how little I have, so I hope everyone will just be happy that I have loved them. I have tried to be a good sister, friend, aunt, daughter and give my heart to the one I love. So I guess that will be my legacy. I have always looked at others lives and yes I'm thankful, things could always be worse. I'm thankful for having friends and family that love me and yes I do appreciate what I have and for what I have been able to do. I'm just tired. Tired of borrowing from Peter to pay Paul. Tired of being sick, and I just want to wake up in the morning and if I don't feel like getting up, then I just want to be able to lay there and not be responsible for someone else. I have allot going on here during the week and I'm so Thankful for Wolf and Annie that I have a place to retreat to for 48 hours out of the week. Annie has opened her home to me, and I can pop in and just relax. Wolf makes me laugh and takes care of me. She shares her family and I need that so bad since mine have gone and the others live up north. Although Wolf's mother got me this morning. Cell rang at 7:30 saw it was her mom I was so tired I thought I would call back in a few minutes. Fell back to sleep and jumped up at 8:15, worried now because I had waited so long and I knew something had to be wrong. She starts out with, "I need you to come out here, the ceiling fell down and I need you to watch the little one while they cleaned up". I asked if anyone was hurt and she said NO that it was just a big mess. Well she had just said a few weeks ago about ceiling leaking. OH, inside my mind is racing. I had planned on taking someone to the grocery store, OK, they could wait until later. I thought, I'm out of gas but maybe I could borrow from her to put gas back in my car so I could get back home. I tell her I could work out everything here and would be there as quick as I could get there, then she said "April Fools"....UGH Then I threatened to do bad things to her. Lucky for her I still have a since of humor. Last year Wolf and I was ready for her and she did NOTHING, forgot all about it this year and she got me. So I have calmed down and instead of putting her in major pain, I will just put her in a small amount of pain. Wolf is also in trouble, because she told her to call and get me.

Well that was the highlight of my week. Except for Granny's post about what Rosie O'Donnell said about the republicans and Wolf's post about her friend screaming like a girl over a mouse, which I'm still laughing about, I could picture him doing this. Yes, I will pull up my Big Girl Panties and go on with life, even though I wish sometimes it would be over. Plus it is the weekend and I will bury my feelings and enjoy being with Wolf.

Everyone have a Great Weekend.